a shoulder to cry ?

Tidak buleh menidurkan diri .. haish~
hati ini sangat sedih .

i leave tigerzz after almost a year waiting .
red_bull gone . tyra fly away . & now diye .

am i looks like monster to them ?

it's not about chinta gelap or whutever . but they are gud enough to hav a place in my heart . coz i dont giv a damn things luving someone after my BEE .

kasih sayang itu ada . i do respect them . they care about me . it's beautiful .

but am weird when im in luv . so emotional . sensitif n meroyan . <<- the gud words 4 dat . haaa it's better to be alone . i guess !!!

but sumhow i need a really2 great buddy to talk to. =(

DIYE yang istimewa . DIYE yang sempurna . xde cacat cela .
sampaikan setiap saat aku mau melihat dia .
mau tau apa yang ada difikiran dia . mau selalu merasai diye.

it's always be like this .
i really dont know whether it's normal or not .

tibe2 aku rasa takut . siapa aku pada dia ?
sejauh mana dia perlukan aku dlm dunia sempurna dia ?
perlukah aku uji diye ?

aku jauhkan diri aku walaupun aku benar2 mahukan dia .
mcm suatu kebiasaan . sakit aku hya untuk menyakiti dia .
sejauh mane diye bertahan ???? sedalam mana pengertian dia ?

ahha . mo men sorok2 . stupid enough!!!!

dan dia dgn mudah membuang aku dari hidup dia .
see . im no one . he really dont hav to care about me.
hurmmmm .

is it so hard to understand ? im the simple as i am .
i really dont see my name in his diary anymore.
or maybe it's never been there .
hoo really hurt me inside.
where are my place sweetheart ?
in the bottom of ur leg ?
im dying.

xpelah . kita hanye merancang.
hidup tak pernah seindah khayalan . im used to it . im fine .
cume serik .

note : am a *freakygurl*. pls dont come near me .